return to the garden

(all photos by Makropoulos)

At the moment when the infamous residents

of the original Garden Eden

ate the apple, something happened:

the human brain began so quickly to grow, so

much so it began to rival

God's

.

And not knowing this new power they so quickly had in hand,

they panicked.

If they had not panicked so

A + E may have discovered,
far too early,
 the distinctive 

pleasure of mind, the intense

satisfaction one can gain

from imagining worlds.

Ultimately, they, both woman and man,

might have gotten lost

in their own individual revery.

Like two fools in front of a TV,

they would have climbed inside themselves

-- godlike, indeed, one and only --

and that would have been the end

of the human race,

before it even began.

But that was not the plan.

God had intended all along for woman

and man

to make manifest the many dimensions of Him/

Her/

(Whatever pronoun we must deploy

to speak of God.)

But if so early in the game

the human players got distracted,

it would be the end.

Amen.

So God, in Her infinite wisdom,

put an end to that:

He decided that humans, 

more than any other species,

would have the distinct ability

to take intense pleasure in the act

of coupling, and presto!

it worked. 

Man and wife produced

legions, and with that too came

                         jealousy

                         pride

                         leachory

                               treachory

                             and 

                         falsehood =

all the products of minds misused

and bodies abused, in the 

lusty quest for self stimulation.

But meanwhile we have reproduced

indeed, and invented History

(written by the few, not always the wise;

the wise, in solitude, advanced technology).

And here we are now 

at the crest of infinity.

In our spare time,

we have created a facsimile 

of God=Expansive Mind,

but in our limitations

and morbid manipulations

we cannot see

that God is with us

and in us

right now.

O man, listen to birdsong.

O woman, cease your labors.

The earth pulses with life;

we are her masters.

It is our responsibility to care for her

as it is our appointed duty.

In the word huma, hu represents spirit, and the word mah in Arabic means water.

In English the word "human" explains two facts which are characteristic of humanity:

hu means God and man means mind, which comes from the Sanskrit mana, mind being the ordinary person.

The two words united represent the idea of the God-conscious person; in other words, hu, God, is in all things and being, but it is man by whom He is known.  "Human" therefore may be said to mean God-conscious, God realized, or God-man.    from: The Music of Life, by Hazrat Inayat Khan

i have a brain: aka: Eckhart Tolle, help me!

toolssite

i have a brain that constantly moves,

pushes material through

its corners and curves,

through its alleyways

and open doors;

like fuel through an engine,

                         whatever

material I push through it,

it uses --

testing logical connections

and juxtapositions,

applying old formulas,

and looking for new ones ---

No matter what I encounter

or seek to entertain

at any given time

I feed it through

my hungry mind-machine

and produce

                           hypothesis

Some are wild

and fantastic --- others,

just like a child's puzzle --

easily solved and easily

perceived.

This is some of what

I write

here; some

times, it's a 

poem; some

times, it's a 

revelation.

Most of the time,

I feel,

my thinking is a 

disease.

The Logic of The Language of the Mind of Human-Kind, Part One

1.

a.

"I can be like this and drive a car!"

b.

"I can drive a car and be like this!"

These two

grammatical shifts

(patterns that are,

by the way,

fairly typical of the dyslexic reader)

shows the bipolar thinking

that occurs inside our brains

at all times.

While one side of our mind thinks:

"I can be like this and drive a car!"

the other side simultaneously thinks:

"I can drive a car and be like this!"

but, depending upon our driving abilities,

and because of the nature of our language,
we can put the emphasis on only one element of the sentence,
so we choose the element that amazes us most
to emphasize.
The difference between those two sentences
is a matter of emphasis.

Grammatically,

in English,

the first clause contains the idea that amazes us most.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ 

( neuroskills )

For English speakers 

and many people

in the Western World,

the first clause in a sentence

is the clause on the left,

Whether it's subordinate

or not, it is the 

favored  clause;

therefore,

the topic that we put

in the first clause

is the most marvelous in that equation, while the one

we put in the second

is the one we take for granted. 

This is because,
in the Western World,
our thinking favors

the left side of the brain,

which means

the right eye leads, like

a leading dancer in a dance;

the right eye leads best

when it leads from

left to right.

Remember that equation, if you can.

(braintraining - please follow the link to see why I chose this image!)

2.

Western Society,

for as long as we can remember,

has been a paternalitstic society --

ie:

we are being led by the left

side of our brain.)

We are being led by the left side 

of our brain because

Adam -

not Eve -

that's right,

Adam

plucked that goddamned apple

          and ate it

               even though

         God said

"don't do it."

OK, so
this seems like an extraordinary leap,
both of faith and of logic,
but

let's go ahead and imagine

the inverse of the story we've always been told:

God said:
"Don't Do It"

and

Eve

echoed "don't do it,"

because she

respected her father 

(ie: she was a daddy's girl)

But Adam

                         -- oh that naughty boy --

did it because he was kind of

impulsive and goofy, not to mention way too proud,

when that nasty snake told

him that the apple would make him

as great as God.

He knew that was not true,

because while he was part of a perfect creation, it was obvious that he was only 

half of God -- that's right --

don't forget that First Chick,

she's the other half, and

hot damn 

(Adam, the First Dude

thought when his eyes were suddenly opened by that nasty apple.
At that moment he became
the First Dude, and Eve became
the First Chick.
And he, in his insecurity brought on
by the fact he thought he was
supposed to be
a perfect entity unto himself,
thought):

she may be better than he

because

she can actually reproduce a human life,

while all he can do

is 

insert his little knob and squeeze.

OK,

that may sound crude but

imagine that that

was the thought that went through

Adam's Insecure Brain

at the moment of the Fall,

when he thought he could

Disobey God

and get away with it:

The Half of God

that we call Adam

first made the horrific mistake

of doing the thing that the Half of God

that we call Eve

knew we shouldn't do:

we shouldn't eat the apple

because

the Entity That Created Us

said so.
And then,
in his insecurity over some of the truths that were revealed,
he opted to
lie.

*****
A little background:

So at the beginning of it all,
God said:

I want to see myself and in order for him

to see herself,

they had to divide themselves -

male and female -

in order to produce

and reproduce

the world

that we are in 

because

the world that we are in

is the inverse of

God. See other

entries by me about 

Creation.

Part of dividing himself in half then involved
creating a creation
that was also divided in half
to reflect this new
impression of God himself,
who is everything,
but is also divided
in half.

3.

Now, honestly, if you're still with me, I commend you because

this all started with a 

seemingly unrelated

sentence and its inversion:

a.

"I can be like this and drive a car!"

b.

"I can drive a car and be like this!"

If God were in 

a situation

where this thought applied,

S/he would think

both these thoughts

at the same time,

the exact time,
and they
would cancel each other out,
because
God can get a little tipsy
and drive a car
and no one would get hurt,
or we'd all get hurt
but no one would care.

'nuff said about

God itself.

4.

But once God decided  to create,

he had to create

Another He, but

He can't be a He; he has to be

a shade different:=

A She.

In order to create 

another self

(if the Self, in the Case of God,

is ALL)

God had to break herself; it's

just that simple:

in half

~~~~

And the logic of the language

of the two halves of the Mind of God

might be summarized best

 in those two sentences I started with.

I Can Be                    I Can Drive

Like This                           A Car

And Drive                        And Be

A Car                              Like This

The Left Side came to dominate

the Male Mind

in the Western World

Because the Western Male Mind

understands, inherently

how to drive a car,
not to mention,
how to fix one.

The Right Side is

the Female Mind

in the Western World

Because the Female Mind

is naturally capable of thinking a bunch of related thoughts

at roughly the same time,
and being kind of artsy.
Unfortunately, this makes her appear
a bit scatterbrained

and only minimally

mechanical.

5.

Now, I know that's an absolutely horrible

generalization,

but for what I'm trying to say,

one has to accept some generalizations,

some stereotypes that,

generally 

prove themselves to be true.

This does, however, raise

the issue of sexual politics:

For the past

howeverthehelllong

the First Dude
seized the moment
and

controlled the story,

so, when confronted, he told the story the way

most men would tell

the story:

he blamed it on the First Chick.

For the past

howeverthehelllong

men controlled language because man collectively knew

that language

was the magic tool

God gave Humans 

to fix the mess He got us into when

She decided that 

He wanted to see Herself.

Language and Mind

were the gift God gave

his multitudinous manifestations

so we could bridge the gap produced

by the universe God created

to reflect his divided, unified
Self.

Man knew that,
so
He

collectively

took control of language,

told the story,

and made Woman

the guilty party.

!!!

Subsequently,
all the traits of Man
became the more respected ones
(including logic, science, and driving a car)
while the traits associated with
Woman
became ridiculed.

Notably,
a little laughing gas
generally would make
even the manliest man
a little womanly, and
sometimes,
when he's acting that way
he can do something downright genius
because he has the correct
balance of creativity and logic

!!!

A key problem, though,

is: it's getting harder and harder

to make that generalization:

sometimes women are capable of thinking
"I can do this and drive a car"

and sometimes men think

"I can drive a car and do this!"

The men who think

"I can drive a car and do this!" get into a hell of a lot of accidents,

because they keep driving

a car

and doing that,

even when it's not wise for them

to drive a car.

This is because those men

whose minds are wired a little more like a woman's (poor things)

believe, quite gullibly,

that all men by nature

can drive a car,

when, in fact,

that isn't true.

They believe it because

they read it in a book written by

some silly Dude who thought

that the art of driving a car

is second nature to 

everyone who wanted to drive a car,

and all people who would want to drive a car

are guys.

And he was wrong.

In fact, it was another way entirely:

It didn't matter who ate the apple.

What mattered was that 

they broke

a law,

the law given by God,

a simple, stupid, random law,

that He gave because

He had to;

and then they tried to cover it up

with a fucking leaf,

as if God wouldn't know

what that all meant . .  ..

(if you dare, read on.  .  . )

The Logic of The Language of the Mind of Human-Kind, Part Two

OK, you're wondering:

so what's the 

big deal?

All over the world

we may encounter

people who either think:

a.

"I can be like this and drive a car!"

or

b.

"I can drive a car and be like this!"

Generally, those who think the latter

should only drive a car

when they're sober, and those

that can say the former

should make an art of driving

 a car when they're high--

 ronniepeterson

 The problem is:

there's no real way to tell

the difference.

Not all guys 

can say the former

and not all chicks

can say the latter,

but we live in a world

unfortunately unable

to see subtlety.

 We've been living in a world

dominated by the belief

that only guys can drive cars.

pitstop

We've entered a pretty monumental shift,

they're calling it paradigmatic.

It's happened at least

once before: 

millenia ago

Eastern thought used to dominate

and the Eastern hemisphere

tends to be able to think:

"I can be like this and drive a car!"

The East reigned over the earth

for a long time

and then something happened:

the earth experienced

a seismic change

that reversed

everything.

In the Bible, that shift is best represented

in the story of when the Tower of Babel tumbled,

and the tribes of men

were scattered;

berrigan

In the speculated history of the science of geology,

it was the 

moment

when the single land mass from the beginning of time

burst in half,

along a fissure line

so enormous

that it can only be equated 

with the mirror God used

to see Himself at the moment of Creation.

both images from Rodinia  

If you've been following my logic

this long,

you may be able to make this logical leap:

the Earth itself then represents

the moment of creation

over and over again.  

We just have to see it.

If only we could see that,

we wouldn't be

so scared.

skyserver

Life & death,

the spinning of 

our Globe

within the sphere defined by our Sun,

which spins within an even larger sphere

all show us the action of

--perfection--

wheels within wheels

sciencebase

Imagine this:

very occasionally,

a certain point

on all of the wheels

align themselves

and something happens

something  perfect

and if one of the spheres

is not as perfect

as it is capable of being,

it might be doomed to go on,

on its fallible,

disposable sphere,

 maneuvering it in avatars

that were oh so perfectly desgined

to inhabit imperfection

until it either

redeems itself

or 

destroys itself,

masuteche

As crazy as this might sound,

this is what I believe

will be

the essence of

2012

All of creation

will come into alignment

and something's going to happen:

something will change

in the course of the cycle,

that will cause other changes.

We've been moving towards this for some time now:

the world is becoming more dominated

by people who are both mechanical and intuitive,

but it's hard to give up

old beliefs.

The solution we have to accept

and enact

before 2012

if we want to live in this new world 

that will no doubt 

be produced

at this time

is the absolute easiest one --

and that is this:

we have to accept that it doesn't matter

who ate the apple,

we ate it together,

male and female

white and black

straight and gay

and all shadings in between.

We messed up together:

no one's right

no one's wrong;

we all just must

simply love each other

and learn to be terrifically honest

about who 

should be doing the driving

and who

should be telling us how

to steer the course,

in all its intricacies.

No, Well, Probably Three

hiya

now in the last entry, 

I contemplated how a given channelling body

can channel more than one personality,

probably three,

maybe more.

I know I have at least three who are 

pretty damned strong.

Are any of them me?

(insert my name as it is known on this earthly plane, which,

quite frankly, 

just isn't that important.)

No.

Not a single damned one of them can claim that name.

They are all other spirits

working through my

earthly avatar

and the difference

between me

and you

is that I acknowledge

that not one single aspect

of the combination of forces

that exist within me 

is dominant:

they are all equal,

and their primary job

on earth is to find a way

whereby they can function 

as equals.

The only way is by using the mind,

that tool in our Avatar

that we were given,

which has the power

to balance our disparate differences.

( templeton-cambridge )

I mean, honestly, why not?

It seems the most economical way to do it, after all.

Imagine all the fragmented,

fractured 

personalities that resulted

from the shattering of the glass

at the beginning of time

-- that nasty old reflecting surface, that mirror --

(to understand this more, please see my earlier entries on the mirror

and palindromes)

We've gone through time

piecing them together,

trying to find the perfect balance --

(each couple, indeed, could be channeling

up to at least eight personalities,

maybe more,

that have to be absolutely in harmony

in order for the couple

to be happy.)

I'm going back to non-italics:

if you can,

read these sections first,

then go back to the italics,

because that's how my mind works:

So, imagine this:

our bodies are avatars =

containers that carry

the multiple dimensions

of the aspect

of God

which is perfect.

It's funny, because

in the movie 

Avatar

there was only one 

person

per

avatar;

however,

don't you think that,

given the expense of the technology,

and given

the rise in group think

in our society 

even Americans would see the logic

of putting more than one personality 

into on avatar --

that's right:

if the USofA

developed the technology

of the avatar and decided

(as in the movie)

to get to know

another nation or creation,

you'd be damned sure you wouldn't get

an avatar to yourself:

it's neither cost conscious, 

nor effective.

Indeed, folks working
in avatars
would have to learn to work together,
in small groups
wherein the personalities all
have different,
complimentary
strengths.
That would make maximum use of the technology.

 . . . . . 

I mean, seriously,

how many space flights had 

only one man on board?

( spaceflight.nasa )

And for the ones that did only have one man,

did they get very far?

( nasa.gov )

This is not to say that we don't need those rebels,

those daredevils who dare

to go first,

but when it comes right down to getting bigger jobs done,

yes, even America has come to realize

you need more than one.

(  columbia  )

(NO!

I'm not being a communist:

just look at it; 

we - the USofA - are very clearly promoting

the group:

 (Google meeting pods designed after Antarctic expedition igloos

found at:

jonathan fields.com )

in-class presentations,

working environments,

everything ----is moving

towards privileging

groups over individuals

so why do we get so upset

over the idea of

a government that acknowledges

that the health of the group

is at least as important as the health

of the individual?

Huh?

Or a government style that feels that

promoting collective solutions

can be more productive than

individual solutions?

I went off track to point out that,

one of the primary flaws in 

the logic of the American system is that

it places far too much importance

on the individual, even as it is

acknowledging, more and more

that the best solutions are

collective solutions.

Very rarely do we experience

 a genius, 

and I'm about to propose an explanation

as to why that so rarely happens:

( wcotrim )

So imagine this:

Imagine that when we are not in our bodies,

we are in another form -

a spiritual form,

that is nearly perfect,

except for the fact that it

was kind of broken

at the beginning of time.

That's right,

the entity we embody 

when we are not in our bodies

is not God;

it is the representation of God

and it was created

at the beginning of time, 

and

it was kind of broken,

by God, who (if you remember

my earlier entries, on the Creation,

etc. . . .follow the key words)

in a moment of weakness,

had the crazy idea

that He wanted

to create something that was exactly

the same

as Him.

 ( Marassasclass )

That's right:

why the hell did God

want to create something in his own likeness

If he was everything?

I mean:

seriously, folks,

if God is everything

he has no fucking reason

to want to create

something

beyond himself.

come on!

Let's be serious, 

now.

but he did

And the reason why God felt the desire

to see himself,

was because:

He is Everything.

And part of everything is:

desire,

lust,

greed,

jealousy,

power,

subserviance,

dominance

desire

desire

desire

desire

So at the moment when God experienced

a preponderance of Desire,

(because God, being God, goes in cycles,

trying out the various aspects

of everything

at regular intervals)

He produced Us.

So He could look at Us.

Because we are all

part of Him.

We, combined,

are the mirror image

of God,

which -

don't forget 

- is Everything.

Humankind is the
ongoing experimen
to reproduce
the perfect mix
that is God
so we can get back to the task
of reflecting God's greatness
back to God;
indeed
we can get back to the task of being God.

So each human entity
is a combination

of the parts of Him,
but only a limited combination

because

each one of us is limited

in  the qualities we can hold

because we're holding our qualities

in physical containers,

and the physical

is not infinite.

(  completelysmitten )

So please read my entries on tikkun, Kabbalah, and Creation --

I can't explain again everything in them.

Anyway:

imagine this:

at the moment of creation

God broke the mirror,

or whatever the object was

that He intended to view himself in

because, shit,

that mirror had the task of 

reflecting 

infinity,

and,

well,

any created substance

does not match the power

of Everything.

So the mirror broke,

into bits and pieces

that got named at that moment

of creation;

humans are part of that

rubble,

and our task ever since then

has been:

to put it back together again;

to reproduce

the perfect

combination

of all the elements

and rejoin

God,

which is everything,

again.

This is a problem

and a challenge,

because

the inherent aspect

of all life

all creation

is that it is 

individualized

specified

separate.

In fact,

we had to gain

a more specific

sense of our selves,

our specific identities

before we could

merge again

into being

God.

( blackcommenter )

That's what the beauty of America

is.

One of my former husbands said

that America is nothing but

a great experiment

(oh, I know he's not the first to say it)

a great attempt to 

ignore difference, but of course

that's proving to be impossible:

the biggest problem in America today

is that we just can't tolerate

difference.

But to be American,

following the original tenents

of America

is to be

tolerant,

forgiving,

respectful.

( DecOfInd )

Anyway,

America was the first step 

in the evolution of the collective mind

to combine the parts of the broken vessel

on a collective level. 

But perhaps it was too early?

No, I think not --

( sulekha )

At the beginning of time,

when God created Man,

he produced Avatars,

recognizing that the Avatars

cannot contain just one piece

of God,

because if the Avatars

contained just one piece

of God,

they would simply sustain the problem,

the problem being

that God was not Everything

as long as Part of Everything

was Us.

US

The United States of America --

That place where States -

geographical boundaries

retain an individual identity

when the real essence

of the founding fathers' documents

was Union.

If the United States of America

could realize that

it is one country

that is responsible for

all  of its citizens

no matter what

their race, religion,

color, or code,

then the United States of America

could

be the model for the rest of the World.

But the danger, is, this:

we can't do it while also retaining

our stubborn hold on believing 

in the validity of the individual.

We literally have to lose

our Egos

and love one another

Now isn't that the craziest thing

you've ever heard in your life?

. . . . this is not the miracle.

The miracle is this:

if we suddenly,

by some 

insane

balance of all the elements,

all our disparate parts

Fell In Love

with each other,

which means:

loving the black man

loving the white man

loving the Asian man

loving the Muslim man

loving the man who

loves the man;

loving

the woman who loves

the woman because she sees

the woman understands, in a way

that no man can understand

because the Man Is The Mirror

In every couple, we have the reproduction

of the two halves of God -- the women

gets the horrible task of being the more powerful

creative half,

the Man, oh the sad sad Man,

has to recognize that his task

is, well, functional:

the Man is the Mirror,

the object God produced

so God Could See God--Self.

But it gets more challenging still:
if you can acknowledge the premise

that each couple reenacts the creative impulse,

the moment of desire when God wanted to see 

Herself

and if you acknowledge the idea that

the mirror broke

because it was not up to the job,

and WE are the pieces of the mirror

and OUR TASK is to use this earth

+

our earthly avatars

+

all the elements the earth gives us

in order to find

the perfect balance that brings us back to

God

well, hell, if you're still with me,

bless your heart,

If you can acknowledge all of that,

well, then you might see why

it is essential that all these avatars

(AKA: our bodies)

cannot just contain 

(ie: channel)

one personality

To be more efficient,

the avatars

should contain at least three, maybe

even four

of the elements of God,

and if

within that avatar

those elements find a way 

to have balance,

well, 

then,

that avatar,

which we know as a human personality

would be said to have attained a level of self-awareness

that is genius:

genius is when, in fact, a human entity represents

a successful experiment

a successful combining

of the disparate parts

of the pieces of a mirror

that was intended to have the power

to mirror the Almighty.

If you take that the next step then,

what is Love?

Love is the capacity for one human being

who has found a sincere balance 

between the elements he/she is channeling

to absolutely forgive, desire, and respect

another individual who has done the same.

Perfect Love

is when each individual is capable of looking beyond

terrific differences

anyway --

I am channeling at least three personalities,

and one of them is most definitely

Makropoulos --

at least one other

loves the idea of Makropoulos

and wants to play along,

and another does too

but she's the personality

who, to date, has always 

been a Company Girl.

There might be

another one in there,

and I think she's a slut.

The thing is:

the other three are so

darned strong,
and

we're working so hard
at just getting
along.