Whole (an edited channelling)

1.

I had a dream

several months ago;

in it,

I was singing

with a multitude of people.

It was the end of time,

and we knew it.

Everyone was walking down streets

long and dark, like an alley,

a huge bowling alley;

so many people, 

so many voices.

And then a group broke off,

male and female, and I

was among them,

and we were singing

to a beautiful musical phrase:

we had no children

over and over again.

we had no children

we had no children

we had no children.

And we were exquisite;

every voice around me

was full and realized,

and every voice was

content with where it sat

in the face

of the singer,

and the singers each

were content

with their faces

that contained

their voices.

It was a joy to sing with them,

and I realized

most of my companions

were gay

or were single and childless,

like me,

and I was happy to be singing

with the choir of the childless

because

we each understood

the sources of our pain and

our voices sounded so good

together,

so we sang, as we marched 

down our narrow street;

we sang

we had no children

we had no children

we had no children

into the depth

of the endless

night.

2.

Some people wonder

why it seems

we have so many gay people

around,

so many

who have not reproduced.

?

Those who reproduce

are those

who are still evolving,

who do not yet recognize

the element of the opposite sex

we each contain,

or perhaps

they haven't developed 

their other halves

so well;

they're still predominantly 

just half.

either

male

or

female

(remember:

god broke in half

in order to be able to see

himherself,

but when they broke in 1/2

he actually had to double

themselves

because

god

was whole

and in order for whole

to see whole

it has to see

half & half

because

if whole

tries to see another whole

well,

it would just continuously

be disappearing

into the 

hole in the middle of whole

that appears

when whole tries

to double itself

; ; ; ;

so whole reproduces itself

by creating

two halves

to represent

the halves

that constitute the whole.

I've said this before.

We -- every part of creation --

are representatives

and representations

of the different aspects

of the whole;

and within each of our species

we continually represent the doubling of the

whole, of the 

entity

that is god.

just think of what happens in nature:

the halves

seperate,

but then become wholes

by doubling --

a continual repetition,

a continual reproduction,

of the act of reproduction

that the creative force

we choose to call God

initiated

when it felt the compulsion

to reproduce

itself.

As the 1/2s evolve,

the aspects in us that

are the essential aspects

of a whole god

emerge, 

and we begin containing

a little bit of each half

of the whole:

Thus, more and more

we are prone to see

people who contain

this doubleness,

and

those of us

who have been evolving

for awhile

from age to age

now occupy

avatars

that indicate

our wholeness

--

we contain a duality

--

a man in a female body;

a female in a male body,

and sometimes

we are attracted to another

just like us.

What else can I say?

I don't know for sure

why

a message like this is emerging;

it just is--

and I'm writing it.

(Actually, I'm editing it, too, 

because the original channelling

was quite a challenge.

But the message

was clear.)

Anyway,

so I'm singing with all these

gorgeous-voiced people

many gay,

many lesbian,

some like me,

all of us who

never reproduced,

not in this lifetime, at least;

we never really needed to reproduce

though we may have wanted to,

because,

some of us,

like me

contained a weeping memory

of reproduction

deep in our wombs.

We are the ones whose

spirits have evolved

to a point

maybe 

shy of wholeness.

And so we contain two in one.

For some of us,

on first sight,

we're way shy of normal,

but the more you get to know us

you see

we're not that bad,

and we're even appealling,

even

beautiful,

and we sure can sing.

And don't forget:

we can't help it==

we were born into these

avatars

that mark the stage we're at

in our spiritual development;

they are

bifacial,

biracial,

bisexual,

bicameral,

and we need them

to learn the lesson

we're here to learn

this time around,

and to help humankind

move

to the next stage it is meant

to arrive at.

soon.

Betweenness (an augmented channelling)

*

( archeology )

This writing that I write

right now

on this thin

textured sheet

of 

woven silence

will be the drawings

at Lascaux

for the future;

it is

the etchings of the earliest

writing, carved

so indelibly

on caves and stones -

this

writing,

the caveman writing,

in an existence of pure

thought, pure,

brain.

~ ~ ~ ~

words will surround you then

just surround yourselves

with words.  This is what

the future will be.

We

won't need food, we'll

only need

words--

the discourse of pure

mind, 

pure thought

( kingashoka )

oh it hurts                 

                       oh it hurts

the insane and the brilliant

      of the previous

ages are those

who press the mind

to its limit--

~ ~ ~

no no now you can't stop

that glorious state

of inbetweenness

gözlerım kapalı                       

I'd like to do it

in a different way

                                               gözlerım kapalı 

there's a bird singing

singingsinging

we will do it =

will live binationally

in a different way

how?

By living in the states of betweenness

( leydesdorff )

! ! !

Betweeners are

the stage of humans

who can negotiate

multiplicity.

Betweeners

are 

Biracial

Bisocial
Bilingual

Bisexual

Bipeds

sometimes, oftentimes

Bifacial

(have you ever seen

a Bifacial?

a person who seems 

to be two

people at once?

One of their profiles

will be 

vaguely but significantly

different

from the other, and

depending on their mood

they can be

stunningly beautiful

or

shockingly homely.)

Bifacials are

the forerunners,

the mutants who mark

the beginning of

the next stage of 

the evolution

of humanity.

They are a physical

manifestation

of the step

on the ladder towards

Absolute Betweenness.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

you can negotiate bisexuality,

by the way,

if you acknowledge

the bisexuality 

of yourself

                                 i never could do that

                        to tell the truth,

            because

                    it would take

                                a pretty pretty chick

                        to make me go

               that way

          like

                                         a chick who looks like me

                             ten years younger.

       but

                                       that's beside the point. 

as is this:

Why Yavuz Bingol's voice is perfect:

there is a tone to his voice,

as there is some other voices

that,

can pull a complicit mind

into a state

of perfection, a moment

of being in

a place 

of betweennness,

between

the purely physical and the purely mental (aka: spiritual)

When you're a betweenner

living in the place of the physical

it hurts

oh it hurts

But some voices can bring you

to the mental place

you need to be

to be.

Likewise,

there are some geographical places

of betweenness,

and if a betweener visits
or lives in

those places,

well,

they couldn't be happier.