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29 April 2011

However

Did you watch it?

Did you get up at whatever
ungodly hour
and watch that wedding?
 
I didn't; I slept
right through it.

I've seen far too many
"royal" weddings
to be impressed.  I know
too well
the pain that even,
and perhaps especially,
"royals" impose upon 
each other.

Marriage truly is
a sacrament;
it truly should be blessed
and reserved
for the sacred few
who feel the highest form of love,
that form of love that can endure
every possible hardship and disappointment.

Marriage should be outlawed
in cases wherein the couples
are together out of
lust,
crush,
greed,
need,
hunger,
anger,
or whatever other lurid
motivation hidden
behind most marriage vows.


Ultimately, then,
it would seem
marriage is only for
the elder,
the more experienced,
or the weak-in-the-head;
so rarely do
young people who
wed have that type of love.


But then I watched
The Wedding
about ten hours
after the fact;
I knew I would see it
everywhere
again and again, and
every Blogger would have something to say about it.

My something to say about it
would be the entry that comes after this.

However,

I always hope for

However,

especially when it comes to love,
especially when it comes to honesty.

And when I saw Kate & William
tonight, I was touched,
and I thought,
and I wonder:

Could they be the 
"HOWEVER"
for our current age

?






The Age of Narrative Interruptus (a channelling)



Why do we take delight  and more delight
in songs   
stories
movies

that end abruptly?  that don't give closure?

. . . the song that melts away
on the lingering chord 
unresolved?


. . . . the story that does not tell us
that we live happily ever after?  But in-

stead leaves us
                   midsentence
                               midaction
                                       midthought
                              mid deed (?)

(or even before the deed; think:
Raymond Carver,

that dear, dear man who many fiction writers today
love to hate, but, well,
I not only still like his writing,
I also still have great respect
for him.

I actually knew him, he and his wife,
Tess Gallagher,
were my neighbors 
for a few years while
     I lived and studied
in Syracuse.

Notably, I studied Creative Writing there,
which of course is what Ray taught - 
I was in the graduate program
he was part of,
but, also notably,
the year I got there, Carver
got something like a MacArthur, 
and well,
what self-respecting writer really wants to teach
when they don't really have to?
He stopped teaching the year I arrived.

Anyway, it didn't matter, I was so clueless:
I went to Syracuse because I wanted to be a writer,
and not
because I knew anything about the teachers there.
In fact, I didn't know who he was the first time I met him
at a party, and I think that may be why 
he always sort of followed my work
for a few years (until they moved);
he would go to my readings, and talk to me
at parties, and give me all kinds of suggestion.
Looking back at it, I can see he 
kind of took care of me, 
in a very quiet way.
I paid him little heed; I was way
way
too in awe.

So anyway --
think Raymond Carver story. . .



OK,
back to my point about why
we take delight and more delight
in songs,
stories
movies

that end abruptly.

Well,

the Age we have been leaving has been
a Narrative Age,
and the age we have been entering,
rather haltingly and painfully,
but now we are absolutely in it,
is the Age
of Narrative Interruptus.


lastwordonnothing


The Age of Narrative was an age
that sought and sometimes found
happiness in its endings.

The "Happy Ever After" marks
Satisfaction and/or
the Desire for Satisfaction coupled with
the Belief
that Satisfaction is possible.

Since this is the Age we are currently exiting
we have inherited a truckload
of Happy Ever After Tales
that promote and perpetuate
a rather stilted view of the world.

IE:
  • if you are good, Santa will bring you packages;
  • if you clean inside your ears, beans won't grow in them;
  • if you make a lot of money, you'll be happy;
      • (a subnarrative of this one is: money can buy happiness -- if you believe this, just think about how much money it takes to be happy all the time); 
  • if you're a blonde, you're stupid and easily pleased
  • if you a marry a particular type of person just like you, you'll be happy
  • marriage and reproduction are the ONLY routes to happiness
The list goes on:
essentially,
they're all mini narratives, all with
happy endings built right into them,
and we grew up using them
to define our paths in life.


But Hot Damn!
Most of us who are my age
                                  (that's 425, remember)
and over have learned
through this rather miserable experience
called life
that those lovely stories, produced by people
whose time, circumstances & personal beliefs
allowed them to think in terms of happy endings,
are lies.

Lies.


Life happens like this:







(and then it's over)

As we have come to understand this
is the true structure of
life in our time,
our stories --
and the literal structure of all of the stories
that we use to help us understand life
has gradually changed.

We prefer
Narrative Interruptus,
because
that is more true to reality.

~ ~ ~


~ ~ ~
It has taken art: aka:
reality's reproduction
a long time to catch up to reality itself.

Reality is this, this life
we lead, and
within this life we lead,
we Humans  were produced by the Creative Force
(aka: Allah, God, Yahweh)
to be the chroniclers & recorders
of the Force's creation,
to be the ones
to show that fabulous creation S/He produced
to the Master
who produced us.
It is our job to mimic all that we encouter
for the enjoyment
of our Progenitor.
(Yes, we are advanced apes,
we are the ones
in all the animal species
to be given the task of
going forth and finding
a way to show the beauty of nature
to the Creative Force
we call God.

That's our job.

Period.

(and, by the way, every now and then God wants to see this creation,
and that, my friends, is Makropoulos' explanation
of Two Thousand And Twelve:
that year marks the juncture
at which God is able to view
The Creation in its entirety,
and,
well,
we'll see what S/He thinks.

In other words, 2012 marks the end moment of the period of time it takes
(when measured in our realm of time)
for the timeless to be able to perceive
of everything it has produced
for the soul purpose of being able to view Itself.
 Eternity, then,
is best defined as a number, and it looks
like this:

fameisn'teverything

After 2012 (which fundamentally marks
the end of the period of time as it is measured in the realm of time
that it takes the timeless to perceive
of the timed)
we'll know how long infinity is,
and we'll be able to use that #
in actual counting, because
at that point
we'll have experienced an eternity
and come out the other side of it.
I'm not kidding!
That's what
12/21/12
will be:
the realization of the year
of the palindrome,
and the realization of the Perfect Mirror Image.



But I should get back to my point, which is
we live currently at the Dawn of the
Age of Interruptus,
during which our primary mode
of representing ourselves to ourselves
will be
by fragmentation.



Life
is
not
one
long
thin
con
tin
u
a
l
thread, no

it is interruption.


We believe no more
in the Aristotelean narrative,

because we know it is no longer
a complete narrative that fits our time.

No.

Our current life narratives acknowledge the short
ness and the changability
of real lived life.

One of the most compelling stories to us
right now,
unfortunately,
is the one that shows how
if you hurt the one you love the most
you can absolutely destroy them,
thereby
robbing them of the possibility of their own happy ending,
when we know darned well we're not going to have a happy ending.

And so we kill,
and kill,
and kill,
and kill,
and lie
and lie,
then kill
and kill
and kill
again.

It is the acting out of our personal discovery
that not every one of life's stories
do not have happy endings, and
it brings happy endings to no one,
and death, painful death
to all.

But the fact is:
endings are often not happy;
endings
are often not even


endings.




We live in the Age of Narrative Interruptus.





02 February 2011

enter the Age of Comedy



It's time for us to end
The Age of Tragedy;
we've been living in it
far too long.

Now, you wonder,
what on God's earth 
does she mean, but you know
this verbious chick will tell you
that, and more.
Furthermore, perhaps you
(like I) are beginning to wonder 
if I ever laugh.
Those last two entries were
dark, and darker still.

But in fact,
I crack a smile on many occasions, and my laugh
is loud.  I love the rush of fresh air
that comes with laughing,
and the way it loosens my clamped
jaw.  This is why
I write this entry:
~ ~ 

We've been living in the Age
of Tragedy 
for far too long.

Now the word "tragedy" can be defined
in a number of ways; I talk
to my students about this a lot,
and here, as in the classroom,
I define it in its most classical sense,
the way Aristotle did:

Tragedy, then, is an imitation of an action that is serious, complete, and of a certain magnitude; in language embellished with each kind of artistic ornament, the several kinds being found in separate parts of the play; in the form of action, not of narrative; through pity and fear effecting the proper purgation of these emotions.  (Poetics)

Thus, 
as you can see,
tragedy is all about
plot and performance.
Its single, ill-fated action
does unfold in narrative time,
enacted by humans
(Notably, according to Aristotle,
the most suitable tragic heroes are men)
while others witness,
watching one man, one great man
make one great
big
stupid mistake.


We, the onlookers,
are supposed to benefit from watching
that fatal error.  We're supposed to be purged
of our own sadnesses and nasty desires,
learn a vital lesson,
and get on with living,
civilly.


Over time, dramatists like Shakespeare
added a second plot,
and even women;
dear Arthur Miller made sure
the Common Man could share
in the carnage, and August
Wilson painted it black.


Tragedy, for thousands of years,
has, ultimately, held the place of choice
in our dramatic fayre.


~ ~ ~ 

Now, I'll take a logical step here
that asks you to apply some of my other ramblings:

Narrative time 
is Real time; 
Narrative time
is All Time.
A distinctive feature of
Narrative time
is that it has a clear
beginning, middle and end
(aka: birth, life, death);
its dominant message
can be summarized
in stories.
Narrative time is the time
we live in.  Lives unfold around
us, patterned by established patterns
we have come to call History.

We live in narrative time.
We --         
----- each of us ---
write our stories with each step
we take, each word we 
utter, each heart we
break.  Of course, when we get
to the end of our stories, and
look back at them,
we just remember
the highest highs and the lowest
lows, editing out the daily trips
to the bathroom.

On some level, we all know
that this is what we are doing
in our lives:
creating our own stories.
This is why we 
go to college, 
get married,
get promoted
have children
get divorced
go on journeys
retire
:
all of these acts provide chapters
in the narrative of our lives
and lead us to place we think
we'd like to be
in the end,
as we face our end.

Sometimes, we feel the need
to edit our stories, with lies
and omissions,
we convince ourselves that we
are always right,
believing that when we review
it all at the end,
the lies will have the power to erase
our biggest transgressions.

Unfortunately, I tend to think that in the story
we will witness at the end, when
we confront that unflinching mirror
of death, those lies and denials will apear
just as that: 
lies and denials.
(ex: she had an abortion
and told everyone
she lost the child
or
he cheated on his fathful wife
and when his wife suspected, he convinced her
she had an overactive thyroid
to divert her attention. .  . 
That's how the lies will appear to us.
The mirror that divides
this world from the next
captures each of our actions
unflinchingly.

Anyway, I can see my own pen meandering.
Back to my point:
we live in narrative time
and each of our lives,
so distinctly framed by
a beginning and an end,
all contain a series of plots.

~ ~ ~ 

Now, a bit over a year ago,
I wrote an entry that referred to the idea
that there are 36 recognized plots
in drama (or so some critics
say), and every play
can be summarized by one
of those plots.

Notably, they're all Tragedies.

In that earlier entry I wondered if the same
could be said of our lives.
At that time my own life
seemed to be catapulting
down a pre-ordained path
that could only end tragically,
and quite frankly, 
I didn't like it.  I felt fated,
and I refused to accept that version
of my own story.
In the time since,
I have reclaimed power over the direction
my feet are tracing, but I'm still 
unsure of the ending.
But aren't we all?
That truly is the part of each
of our stories
we generally have little power over.

Anyway, at that time, I considered how perhaps
our lives follow
pre-ordained, repeated plots,
that traverse this earth in cycles,
unrecognized until the end, when
we come face to face 
with the plot we accepted,
and lived,
trudgingly,
in this lifetime.
Thinking we couldn't change it,
we followed the footsteps of those
who came before.

And the dominant genre,
the favored genre 
of the past 2,500 years or so,
has been Tragedy.

Just look at it:
the blood spattered across the lines
our feet have traced, 
collectively and individually.
Even the story of Jesus
is a tragedy : He saves us
in a self-sacrificial gesture; He
provides us all with a text we repeat
annually,
a text that documents humanity's greatest sin:
the Sin of Killing Innocence.
A sin we keep committing,
over and over.

Who is the Hero in that?

* * *

Notably, the joy in the story of Jesus
comes from two places:
in the insistence of the primacy of Love
and
in an act that, in other circumstances
would be called "magic."
He rose from the dead:
magic.
And, arguably,
Comic.

 ( utexas )

 Now, quite frankly,
one is more likely
to encounter
magic,
rebirth,
restoration of order
and a celebration of Love
in a Comedy.

Aristotle, by the way,
appeared to disapprove
of Comedy.  
This is what he had to say about it:

Comedy is, as we have said, an imitation of characters of a lower type- not, however, in the full sense of the word bad, the ludicrous being merely a subdivision of the ugly. It consists in some defect or ugliness which is not painful or destructive. To take an obvious example, the comic mask is ugly and distorted, but does not imply pain. 

Aristotle did grant women a place 
in Comedy.


~ ~ ~ ~

Now the thesis of this rambling blog entry is 
that we should have done with 
The Age of Tragedy
and commence
with Comedy
(or at least the Tragic-Comic,
which acknowledges that life has elements
of both.)

I propose (as I have said) that each 
of our lives follows a path,
a path we choose;
our feet are our pens,
their markings, ink, indelibly
etched across the pages of earthly time.

Unfortunately, I propose,
collectively humanity keeps following in the previous
generations' paths, wearing them deep into the brow
of human memory,
so deep we seem to have 
no other option.

Those paths are painfully tragic,
and sad, full of mistakes that we could not accept,
as we are
as blind as Oedipus before his 
eyelessness.


It's time,
I think, to have done
with the Tragic Plots that History
continually replays; 
we've become too obsessed with gore,
titilated by catharsis so much so
that we've lost sight
of the lessons we are supposed to be learning,
all because we,
the potential heroes, 
keep lying, from age to age, refusing
to accept responsibility for the sins
we've committed.



The lesson I've learned in my multiple lives
is
that you cannot hide from yourself.
Ultimately, when the crowd is gone,
when you face your own silence,
the truths are always there.

The only way out of the lies that cloak our vision
is to tell our own truths,
first to ourselves,
and then to those we've deceived,
always remembering
that only (s)he without sin
can cast 
the first stone.


So let's imagine the majority of humanity
decided to do this.
The only humans who should qualify as judges
in this collective, individual confessional
will be
children, with the average age 
of three.
If they heard all these stories
of our indiscretions
they would laugh at the foolishness
of humanity before them,
they would cry a little too,
but finally,
thank us for finally telling them
the truth,

and they'll still love us,
because we taught them well.


Jesus will come again
at the very instant 
the Age of Comedy dawns,
at the crack of the collective human laugh
at our own foibles
and clumsiness,
at the bursting of
collective love
that refuses to lie
ever again.

Jesus will be there,
covering the earth like a blanket,
his smile glimmering in the stories
that we've each told, 
and in our final realization that WE 
have the power to end the Tragedy
as Comedy.