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04 August 2012

Cooked Meat


Why is my cat Pisi saying
when she follows me around,
              miaowing,
even after she has eaten?

Is she asking me to feed her again?


I beg to differ; she's actually asking me to feed
myself.  She is, after all,
domesticated.  And
in the cat world, "domesticated" means
to prefer ones meat
cooked,
especially over an open fire.


Because that's how it was cooked
aeons ago when
the first brave feline took the step -- 
or should I say,
the first hungry feline took that step 
into that huddle of men,
that circle of fire,
and chose to not attack
but rather accepted
                                          the rules, and in accepting
                             the rules, received
Cooked Meat.  

Cooked Meat? the first brave cat or two meowed
and then ate some more
and liked it.
And once into cooked
meat, there was no
turning back.


My cat, Pisi, might I note, is a 
frontier cat, a border 
cat,
not content with mice 
or just one street corner.
That's why she's with me.

Now, that primitive connoisseur cat invited other cats
like itself to dine with her, and gradually,
they all joined the human coterie,
and in joining
-- and surviving -- 
developed an innate sense memory to find
Cooked Meat.  Smell
sense and sound sense and 
sight sense and sixth sense, the cat 
knows the meat is cooking and awaits
its arrival, patiently.  Obediently.  After
a few generations, the cats become
programmed to believe that
Cooked Meat is the only ticket
to survival.  So

my meowing evening cat, following me
from every task to every task except 
cooking meat, is not demanding more
cat food, but rather expects that since I give her
meat even when she doesn't ask for
Meat, she'd much prefer I just
Cook Meat.   Cook Meat! is what she says, not
"cat food."  She wants
Cooked Meat.  And once I
Cook Meat, and Share Meat,
she is replete, and if I'm 
good, she might even let me
pet her,
brush her,
tame her.


My cat Pisi, plucked early in life
from Ankara's cat-killing streets,
learned fast.  Domestication appealed
when she knew the wild would 
turn her into
Raw Meat.  So she said, pass the
Cooked Meat, and keep it coming!  And she has traveled for miles
with me because I give it
to her,
even when she doesn't ask.

The domestic cat, like any
domesticated creature
requires consistency.  She
wants the meat everyday,  or else
she'll eat your ankle.



Take heed:
FEED
the cats

02 February 2012



We create . . . we destroy. . . . we
create we . . . . destroy we. . . . . .
. . .recreate. . . . . to . . . . . . . . . .re
destroy to . . . . . . . . . . . .  recreate
to destroy . . . . . . . . .  . . . . . we re 
create to . . . . . .  . . . . . .destroy we
recreate to . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .  de
cimate to . . . . . . . . . . . .recreate . . .
we de . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .cimate to
evolve






05 January 2011

Listen To The Children: A Channelling

*

Listen to the Children


My nephew               
           is 3
                        and
his mother is Greek.

My nephew
      is
              Greek.

My mother
      is
                   not.
She lives
    in
            Ohio.

And she doesn't know what
my peaceful,
placid,
artistic brother -
her son -
and father to my Greek nephew
is going to do
about his strongwilled,
mother-loving                            
son,
                        who is more Greek than American.

My mother's fear
        is that my brother
and sister-      
in-law   
will decide

that the best place to be 
                   is Greece.

Greece was built
for my nephew,  
                and
my nephew built
for Greece.          
(photo by Makropoulos)
 
But it is likely
our families
will partake in
a miserable,
soul destroying
tug-of-war           
over where
my brother, his wife, & their son
who is Greek
will live,
over how                   
that threesome
should negotiate
two mothers on two
continents.

So my nephew will be
a very unhappy boy
in a very unhappy family
in the 
United States of America.

* *


I really believe
that our children
at the instant they step
screamingly into
               life on earth,
know
what they need
to be the best
they can be.

The quality of their scream
                            echos
the urgency with which
their needs need
to be met.

Listen to their screams;
listen
to the patterns of their early
                         inclinations
and follow them;

do not ask them
to follow you.

If you do,
you'll have disaster
 or                              
you'll have life as we now know it.

* * *

Our children are
our evolution; they
are our better selves --

If we listen
to them closely
at the instant of their births,
we will hear
the nature
of the evolutionary step
that we are challeneged 
to accomplish in this lifetime.

Our children are our guides.

Many of us are dumb and deaf
to their demands
and we instead force the child
into our demands,

because the challenge of arising
to the nature of their 
call                                 
is so massive,
so               far
outside who we are at that moment
when we first meet them.

A parent's job
is to guide
the child,
using the rudder provided 
by our collective ethical history of life on earth,
but 
a parent's job
is also to yield
to the powerful calling
of his/her young:

to take all the steps necessary 
to make the child
the person she or he
was born to be.

That's a huge responsibility,
and it is
responsibility
at its utmost.

4.

listen to the children!!


even if they say:
                 I am Greek,
and you
                 are Turkish.

Move to Greece,
and learn to love
                 the Greeks.

You Can!
Love Them!!
And in loving them,
you will find
the salvation that you need:

Listen to the Children!!! 



10 October 2010

Betweenness (an augmented channelling)


*

This writing that I write
right now
on this thin
textured sheet
of 
woven silence
will be the drawings
at Lascaux
for the future;
it is
the etchings of the earliest
writing, carved
so indelibly
on caves and stones -
this
writing,
the caveman writing,
in an existence of pure
thought, pure,
brain.

~ ~ ~ ~

words will surround you then
just surround yourselves
with words.  This is what
the future will be.
We
won't need food, we'll
only need
words--
the discourse of pure
mind, 
pure thought



oh it hurts                 
                       oh it hurts

the insane and the brilliant
      of the previous
ages are those
who press the mind
to its limit--

~ ~ ~

no no now you can't stop
that glorious state
of inbetweenness

gözlerım kapalı                       

I'd like to do it
in a different way

                                               gözlerım kapalı 

there's a bird singing
singingsinging

we will do it =
will live binationally
in a different way
how?
By living in the states of betweenness


! ! !

Betweeners are
the stage of humans
who can negotiate
multiplicity.
Betweeners
are 
Biracial
Bisocial
Bilingual
Bisexual
Bipeds
sometimes, oftentimes
Bifacial
(have you ever seen
a Bifacial?
a person who seems 
to be two
people at once?
One of their profiles
will be 
vaguely but significantly
different
from the other, and
depending on their mood
they can be
stunningly beautiful
or
shockingly homely.)
Bifacials are
the forerunners,
the mutants who mark
the beginning of
the next stage of 
the evolution
of humanity.

They are a physical
manifestation
of the step
on the ladder towards
Absolute Betweenness.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~

you can negotiate bisexuality,
by the way,
if you acknowledge
the bisexuality 
of yourself

                                 i never could do that
                        to tell the truth,
            because
                    it would take
                                a pretty pretty chick
                        to make me go
               that way

          like
                                         a chick who looks like me
                             ten years younger.
       but
                                       that's beside the point. 


as is this:

Why Yavuz Bingol's voice is perfect:

there is a tone to his voice,
as there is some other voices
that,
can pull a complicit mind
into a state
of perfection, a moment
of being in
a place 
of betweennness,
between
the purely physical and the purely mental (aka: spiritual)

When you're a betweenner
living in the place of the physical
it hurts
oh it hurts

But some voices can bring you
to the mental place
you need to be

to be.


Likewise,
there are some geographical places
of betweenness,
and if a betweener visits
or lives in
those places,
well,
they couldn't be happier.
















18 September 2010

The Scholar: A Channelling

. . . . and so it begins
the horrendous roller coaster 
treadmill of the academic
year
Some people think college professors
have it made,
but honestly
these days
that isn't true.

( Shelah )

Of course, there are those 
tenured faculty, who
admired what appeared to be the easy life
of their 
English Professor,
in the 1970's,
and perhaps it was 
easy
in its way.

But like a child who admires his father's
authority,
the students who envisions and envies
his professor's 
solitary ease,
imitates it, and 
imitates it with exaggeration.
After all, the child doesn't see the work
that goes into 
apparent ease.

So, yes, there are
professors today
who are very, very
lazy, and then
there are those who do
their jobs, which means
when September hits, so too does their
4-4 or 5-5
teaching load
hit
the fan and splatter
and so begins. . . 
the meetings and the committees and
the papers and the
                  Task Forces
designed by administrators
with literature Ph.D.s 
who are either more cunning
or more beguiling
or more corrupt
than the menial faculty.
And the duties they design
so urgently 
will become passe
when they move away
in a year or two
to a seaside experimental College
not too far from Berkeley.


( Bowman )

Yes, so it begins,
and I 
a faculty 
member
spawned by hardworking mentors
begin my struggle:

my mind gets cluttered
with a multitude of tasks
designed to appeal
to my well-meaninged
intentions,
designed to quell my cantankarous
ruminations.

All week long I trudge
from day to day 
from paper, to paper,
pursuing these days
when my brain, so full
of mutterings
can spill
on this miserable page.
With a little help
from my friends, I squeeze
the chatter 
into oblivion, for a time
when time gallops
forward, and so does
my pen, just barely
fast enough
to capture the moaning voices
of captives in my head
my head
the cave
the cave
where perhaps exists a
universe just like
the one we live in,
and the great mind 
that fashions the wheel
that spins around a glowing
center in this world
is mine.  And somewhere
on a planet circling that star
in my mind
                                         lives me, struggling to see
                                 the meaning of it all.



The savior of the world
in my own mind is me,
and if I can just be true
to me
everything will be all right.

 - - - ) ) ) ( ( ( - - -

This is where the current 
academy
comes in:
it is designed to detain
the minds of men
and women
from themselves.

It was designed by men
living inside their own heads
100 years or so
ago,
and it worked for awhile,

But not anymore, as the 
master brain evolves to meet
the God-Brain,
the ways of that mind
that Old old mind
will no longer fit the bill.


Jesus will come as the scholar
in the 4 days of the grid,
in the
Age of the Grid
at the exact
point of juncture
where & when
women &  men
realize
The Messiah is the mind that
unites us,
the point
of agreement
and acceptance
and forgiveness.


It's so easy
that it's hard, the hardest
thing in the world
to do.


Most people would just
laugh
and say:
it's the stupidest
most asinine
idea, and no way
could it happen:

what could happen:

humans would advance to the point
where they could all
we could all 
just look each other
in the eye
and just
stop
fighting
              just
stop
demanding
notoreity
or equality,
because
If we all stopped fighting,
stopped hating,
started communicating

we'd all be equal.

That's right:
suddenly,
we would all
be
equal.

Jesus will come as the Scholar
in the 4 Days of the Grid:
in earlier entries
I've contemplated
who Jesus was
       or is,
and mostly,
what the Grid is,
but have I spoken of the scholar?

The scholar is the greatest
any man can be,
recognizing that scholar
-ship
means reaching the highest
intellectual potential
one can reach
on the subject that one
is born to be best at;
therefore;
one can be a scholar
in their taxi, or a
scholar delivering mail,
or a scholar
teaching infants,
or a scholar
in jail.
 Just as long as the mind
that God gave you,
that absolute 
 organ
made in His likeness,
just as long as you are true
to its greatest potential,
you, too,
                are part of

Jesus rising. 

- - - ( ( ( ) ) ) - - -

Jesus will come again
as the Scholar
to the scholars
when the 4 points unite:
the East
the West
the North
the South
at the moment of the juncture
when the eye of God
gazes directly
at the mind of Man
through the only aperture
in the heavens
that makes this possible:

by the way,
it's a mirror
in the mind
of God:
that's the ticket,
that's the 2-way street,
the moment of Reflective Practice
when God reflects 
on himself:

and when he does, we
are the image he sees:

We happy Three
We Trinity.


Is this a joke?
Is this a drug induced
harangue?
Or is it
a channelling,
a message
from the galaxy
inside of me
that is really
my point of entry to
the entirety
of the almighty.

Don't think too hard.
Just ride that trai
and if you fall off,
don't fret
there's always another.

But if you're wondering the date and time
of this miraculous
mirror gazing:
it would be
some time in the 12th month
of the year
2012.


28 August 2010

Some Current News That Coincides With My Recent Channelings and Articles



I really want to thank
anyone 
who follows this blog
with any 
regularity.

I know it's damned hard work.

What's even harder,
is this:

Working a regular job
while this stuff
keeps pouring through.




Some of my entries are pure channelling,
some is pure
intellectual work
done by my poor
feeble mind
as it puts together the pieces
I've been studying 
for a very, very long time.
If you follow the logic that I am channeling,
I mean:
seriously channeling,

then I'm also recognizing texts

done by previous channelers.

I'm putting together
a huge 
puzzle.


You must be patient.

~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ 

In the meantime,
check out these recent newstories
that bring some 
interresting correlations
when read along side my recent
more intellectual
entries



Space Squid Takes Sci-Fi Back to Clay-Tablet Age






And two that are not directly related,
but
I just like it because I see
an indirect relation
to other stuff I wrote in the last six months:






(I'll probably have more to say about that last one.  looks a bit like a skin disorder,
doesn't it?)






11 August 2010

The Logic of The Language of the Mind of Human-Kind, Part Three




(from the Church of Panyia tis Skripous near Orchomenos, Greece
photo by me )

1.
With regards to the NPR broadcast about symbolic thought (see link a couple entries below),
a friend said this to me:
"I thought just thinking is symbolic thought!"

Quite frankly, it is, if thinking involves taking something unsaid
and making it said.

Think about it this way:
our brain is just a murky cauldron of impulses
and frequencies,
and in that sense it is a bit like the universe itself.

Once we suffer the desire
to articulate some little part of that murk,
and once we produce a 
receptacle - any kind of receptacle -
to contain the meaning we intend to convey,
we are entering the realm of symbolic representation.

Thus,
1. a ring or a bead is a receptacle to symbolize our union
and promise to another person
2. a cross is a receptacle to represent a certain branch
of religious belief
3.  painting a wall blue is an attempt to symbolize -
and hopefully produce - calm.
4.  wearing a John Lennon t-shirt signifies one's alliance to what
he has come to represent.
5.  a sigh, too, can be significant, if uttered
in the presence of others, with the intent
that it be heard
6. words, like these words I write to you,
contain a vast number of impulses
that my sad poor brain 
feels a need to articulate
7. something like a stop sign is a complex
symbolic representation, as it combines a shape 
(that shape alone has come to signify Stop!);
a color, red, which suggests urgency;
and a word.

The most challenging form of symbolic representation is words, because
words assign physical sounds,
and arrange those sounds in a number of ways, to
signify specific concepts.  Those concepts
can be either 
concrete or abstract--

table what I write upon, is concrete--
love what I feel for you, is abstract

If you think in words, then thought is symbolic representation.
But it's a higher order of symbol than a bead.
By higher order, I mean, 
more evolved.




2.

The question I think is fascinating,
and the question broached by that NPR piece,
is
at what point did the human animal begin
to assign various combinations
of sounds and intonations
to both concrete and abstract concepts?

Furthermore,

at what point and how
did we begin to represent those physical utterances
as symbols - ie: in writing?

I can imagine
as with some animals and human babies,
the first attempt to produce
sound with discrete meaning
is probably the isolated sound
"ma."

(For how many cultures does some form of "ma" mean mother?)

As has been said
by Freud, Lacan,
and countless other scholars,
the beginning of language
is desire.

But there's something 
more subtle and significant than that,
where language is concerned.

Yes,
DESIRE is the 
beginning
of everything,
period.  Desire
for another, 
for the act of coupling
for the act of transcending 
our isolated bodies, 
and the byproduct
often
whether planned or not
is another,
a new, single entity.

For the first year or so 
that baby human is no more than
the human animal.
She has human needs and desires
linked to survival and satisfying
her body's needs,
and those needs are continually fulfilled,
usually
by 
ma.

True, the baby does not start saying "ma" right away.
It screams,
as an animal screams.
At the beginning of life,
the baby human animal is convinced 
that he and ma are
one entity, and 
if ma's not there,
there's something wrong in 
babyland.
The baby begins to suspect pretty early
it might be alone,
and it screams.
It screams for the sake of survival,
though ironically
in much of the animal world,
a screaming abandoned baby
often expedites its own death.

Anyway --

The point at which the baby decides to just say
"ma",
indeed,
the point at which the baby 
decides to start imitating the sounds
made by its parents
coincides with the moment at which
the baby becomes resigned
to the idea of being alone,
of being an entity separate from its mom.
Lacan calls this the Mirror Stage,
the moment at which the baby looks in the mirror
and recognizes itself as a complete being,
and at that point the baby begins
its excursion into symbolic representation,
and socialization.

As Ferdinand de Saussure said,
the symbol represents anything that is not present;
it stands in the place of that which is
missing,
lost,
yet to be found.

When the mom is missing,
you say "mom."
When your cat is missing,
you post a sign on a telephone pole.
When you sense in your gut that
there's something greater than you,
but you haven't seen it,
you say "God."

The question becomes,
when we move this theory and equation 
into the history of humanity,
at what point did the human species
evolve from the screaming, impulsive animal 
it probably was
to creatures that developed a complex system of representing thought?




I would say it came at about the same time someone ate an apple.
Very shortly after the moment of eating an apple,
the first signifying act produced by humans
recorded in written human history occurred:
it was a leaf on the genitals,
an attempt to hide the fact
that those two naughty kids  could suddenly see
that each of them were 
single,
alone,
and different

Up to that point, they thought they were 
one and the same,
with each other and with God.
If you really want to go far with this,
perhaps
the story of Adam and Eve is an allegory,
but a fairly realistic one, at that,
that tells us 
the story of evolution
including
the precise moment at which
the human animal
entered the realm of symbolic representation

(thereby, making them
social,
civilized,
god-less
human beings).




09 August 2010

NPR does Semiotics




While I was eating my dinner tonight,
I heard this on the radio --
National Public Radio, to be exact:



I'm kind of sad that I can't make a more illustrated link to this story.
It discusses Evolution
(oh, one of my favorite topics)
and how symbolic language
is one of the key things
that distinguishes us from animals.

I don't agree with everything she says --
she's very beholden to Ferdinand de Saussure
and other standard semiotic theories,
and an entry I want to write this week
(hopefully today or tomorrow)
addresses some of Saussure's concepts
directly.

But I just think it's thrilling that 
they're talking about this stuff
on the radio.


I love the radio.



06 June 2010

fever state

1.
I really wanted to write something here
today,
but I woke up with
a fever.
Aching, coughing, miserable,
the whole nine yards.

I felt really crappy
about the fact
I could barely move without 
crying,
until I heard a story about this man
on  National Public Radio's  "This American Life." 
Here's a link to the whole story:

There are at least four stories in this radio program,
but the one that made me think I'd better get my ass out of bed
is called "I've Fallen In Love and I Can't Get Up."

This is a story about Chris Higgins,
who has something called 


I would not like what Chris has.
Narcolepsy, as you probably know, is a neurological disorder
wherein you fall asleep while you're going through your daily life.


Add cataplexy to it, and you lose muscle tone when you receive certain emotional stimuli.
Generally good emotional stimuli.  




So if Chris is gazing at his grandchildren, happy that they're 
beautiful and happy and healthy, he has an attack - ie: he loses all muscle tone and falls
asleep.  In the radio show, he talks about how he goes to his brother's wedding, and instructs people to just lean him against the wall so he looks attentive.  And that's what he did.  There are pictures of him,
propped up against the wall, I guess.  Looking at the pictures, or even just talking
about them will also give him an attack.

The result of this disorder is that the sufferer has to make every attempt
to avoid happy situations.  
This, as you might imagine, makes life very difficult
for his wife.

Love, itself, is debilitating for him.
2.
Now I'm a blogger who sings 
the praises and power of love,
so I felt a deep sadness for Chris Higgins,
and it really kind of woke me up,
and made me think of a thought that I've had
several times over the past six to nine months:

Love, itself, for living creatures,
can be absolutely debilitating. 
Love sickness causes us to
lose our minds,
and the conditions that can occur when you lose the thing you love
can be even worse,
especially if you are a sensitive person.
Having the person or object you love begin to treat you badly
can actually lower your resistance to a number of other illnesses,
and absolutely losing the beloved sometimes changes a person's health
and happiness forever.  It can be incurable.

Despite the fact that I continually
conclude my channelings and ramblings with
the concept that love is the only answer to all our woes,
I also often wonder if,
as long as we live in our earthly avatars,
we might be better off without love.

3.
Consider, for instance,
the psychopath.  I have encountered the idea recently that the 
psychopath might actually be the next stage in
human evolution:
"The goal of evolution is to maximize a specie's chance of survival, and there is evidence to show that the basis of psychopathy is an heritable predisposition to the disorder, a disorder which enhances the psychopathic individual's chance of survival. Therefore, is psychopathy indeed the result of human evolution?"  ( Psychopathy:an Evolutionary Perspective )


After all, it is love, and emotional connections, that will cause a human to go back into a burning building to retrieve a baby, or a dog, or a bird.  Love causes women and men
to stay in destructive relationships; love also produces martyrs.  Consider, for instance,
the case of Jesus Christ and Noor-un-nisa Vilayet Kahn (I've written a bit about her earlier in this blog.)
Love is the primary motive of their martyrdom.  Love and the willing loss of selfhood 
for the sake of the collective human race.

Now, in this day and age,
many people may think that's just plain crazy.

If a species intends to survive, 
it's best off just leaving its emotions at the door.

If this is the case, perhaps Mr. Higgins' Narcolepsy/Cataplexy
actually marks an advancement of the species
which happened in his brain 
during this lifetime.


4.
Now I'm the first to admit that this is a troubling concept,
and that I find the human capacity to love to be
 the thing that makes us divine;
otherwise, we're little more than animals.
But after all, we are only animals - right? 
And as I've argued elsewhere, we were born into our animalistic avatars 
(these bodies)
in order to live on this earth.

I've also contemplated elsewhere the concepts of
creation,
the Fall,
evolution,
the soul
and a bunch of other really heady stuff like that.
In fact, much of this blog is about heady stuff like that
and I'm absolutely stunned and thrilled to see
there are a couple people out there in the world
who have actually returned to this blog and read
more than one of my rambling, channeled entries.
I thank you.

In a few of my entries, I contemplate what happened
when Adam ate that apple.
And here I would like to add another thought to that
theme:
when Adam ate that apple
(of course because Eve made him do it)
he became, as the Book of Genesis tells us
more like God.
Being more like God 
is being able to look at the creation
and love it.
Before Adam ate the apple,
I'd venture to suggest,
he and Eve were really nothing but
animals.
Happy animals, at that, 
and animals who were given the 
ability to use words,
but animals, nonetheless.

So it is possible that one of the effects of eating
the Fruit of the Tree of Knowledge
was the man suddenly had the capacity to look at his mate,
and fall in love.
Love is an emotion that is God-like;
love requires an all-encompassing gaze
and absolute forgiveness, 
which man, in his earthly avatar
and its limited function,
is incapable of doing.

Following this line of thinking,
love is what makes us God-like,
but it is also the thing
that can kill us,
as individuals
and as a species.

5.



In the realm of the undead and undying,
which is where Makropoulos lives,
most human entities 
have something akin to Narcolepsy with Cataplexy.
They can't be happy; they can't love;
they have to maintain a certain level of misery and pain and predatorial lust
in order to survive.


The problem with Makropoulos
me
is that I was damned by a selfish man
to live forever young,
but I was not wired to not love.
I can love;
I do love;
it is essential to me.
A prerequisite of love is the capacity to be selfless.
I will love you
if I let myself,
like I can read your mind
if I let myself;
I've simply learned how to not let myself do either,
because if I permit myself to do 
one or the other or both,
if I open the barriers I've learned to put up,
the pain and horror of what I encounter
is so horrible and heartbreaking,
I know I will surely go insane.


I won't go on with that; 
read other parts of the blog
if you want to know who Makropoulos is.

6.
Sometimes I look at the young people today.
Either from being in a family where love didn't exist,
or from being subject to loveless media stimuli,
they have learned that loving 
is fatal, and so they don't do it.
Some are just born with the incapacity to love.

Perhaps, as a new generation,
they mark the evolution of humankind,
as well as the guarantee that we will survive as a species.

But if that is true, what of love,
and what of God?

This line of thinking marks the essence of the historical juncture at which we currently live:
we can either work, as a species,
to find a way to maintain the place of love on this earthly realm,
or we can make it a myth, an old magical tale long past its currency
and let the new generations of the loveless assure
the ongoing existence of our species.