Place of Refuge

Place of Refuge

21 December 2011

Beside Myself


I'm standing beside myself
and staring
up a long, cold concrete stair,
walking beside myself,
doubly visioned,
doubly
unaware --

me
momentarily divided in two
by the tilt of the earth
by the pull of the moon.


My other self,
my darker self,
the self I like to hide
for a moment illumines,
its unbearable brightness
filling my mind
lighting the truths 
about me
about life.
These are
the truths that I hide
because they're so large,
no one could bear
to stare
at them daily.
But when I'm beside myself,
when I'm split in two,
I see what lies hidden,
and I see
what hides it, too,
unbearably.

You too.


Have no fears.
Even in this weight of stark
self division, we are turning
back towards coherence;
 even as we are moving
into the darker days,
each imperceptibly longer,
the sun is moving too,
planning its return --

Prepare yourself
for that time, when
we can be whole, and gaze
at the beauty of earth again, 
and revel
in the gifts that it gives.

This solstice,
this Christmas,
give the gifts of a child -
of peace and love,
and wide-eyed honesty, so
the next time your self divides
you are happy
with what you see.

2 comments:

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Solstice blessings to you, Makropoulos!

laurak@forestwalkart said...

perfect Tull....for this post.

the moon the earth the splitting the covering. me.

words i can relate to, understand...and feel. :)

you too...be surrounded with love. peace. happiness...through this wintery season...and in to 2012...and on.

xo