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Showing posts with label Shakespeare. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Shakespeare. Show all posts

03 October 2012

Watching The Debates: Vote for Fil I. Buster

I'm getting frustrated,
and the first debate is still on.


Why, oh why,
has Barack Obama not mentioned this:

Congressional Filibuster Record by Party 1992 - 2011

Romney keeps making himself sound like
he would be nothing but bipartisan.

( from thebigpicture )


But we know that's not true.
We know
that any democrat in Congress
in a Romney presidency
would be silenced.



Oh, that face,

( from USAToday )

that face:
I trust it as much as I would trust
Iago.



26 September 2012

Vanity Sizing and the American Psyche



Sometime between 1999 and 2004, a miracle happened to me: 
I shrank.
In 1999, before I moved from the U.S.A. to Turkey,
I went to the doctor, and weighed in at around 148 pounds,
 5' 10" tall.
When I went to the mall to buy some pants for my move,
I bought a size 12.  I have wide hips.
The width of my hips was always a bit of an issue with me,
and as a younger woman I did stupid things to slenderize,
but then I decided that I had to accept that
my bone structure can't be changed.
And that was that: size 12 pants,
size 10 dress.
A comfortable, but slightly tall
Medium.
Out the door, I carried clothes made of real cotton
that I still own.

And then I moved away.
In Turkey, I did not shrink,
I remained the same size,
and my skin became paler.
But the first time I bought clothes back in the States,
about a year later,
I was amazed that I was buying
size 10 pants.
A few months later, in the USA, I was a comfortable
size 8, and by 2003 or so
I actually bought a size 6 pants in the USA.
I wish I could show them to you,
but they were really flimsy and feel apart.

America, you see, is the land of miracles:
as long as I was buying my clothes in the States,
I was shrinking.
I could ignore the scale, 
which hadn't budged,
nor had a shrunk in any other proportion.
It was all perception, after all.
I was shrinking.
The closet proclaimed it to me defiantly,
on every tag declaring my new size:
my ass was narrower,
my boobs more modest,  my waist
wasting away.


( from: listxsadist )

Well, if I wanted to be delusional,
I could believe that, but
I've never been one to favor
that frame of mind.
I prefer
the raw, cold truth,
even if it means acknowledging
things like my increasing varicosities.
In the end, I feel it makes life
a little easier.
At the time,
I suspected that there was a conspiracy afoot
to maintain America's delusion
that they weren't getting fatter,
and this morning as I woke up again
to my trusty radio, 
I heard a story that confirmed 
precisely what I had been thinking.


(photo and story at 
NPR )

Vanity sizing:
the latest, greatest
American tall tale,
designed to keep the clothes
moving off the racks.
This is what one of the women said
on the radio, in her lilting, lovely
Indian accent.
When Americans kept getting fatter,
and the sizes remained the same,
well,
the clothes stopped selling.
The clothing industry, then,
came up with this brilliant idea:
make a size 6 bigger, and
make a size 6 a size 00,
and lead the consumer to believe
they were still as svelte as a model,
even if they no longer fit
into normal-sized movie theatre seats.

I guess the statement that put me over the edge, though,
was this:
the interviewer asked the woman
with the lilting, lovely Indian accent
if this was ethical:
aren't we lying to the public?
And she replied:
It's not really a lie,
if the public wants to be lied to.

Ah, indeed, the logic of it sent my mind reeling,
because,
because
among other things, I thought:
is this the attitude that the rest of the world  has
about the average American?
That we are complacent, stupid, fat people
in denial about what we really are?

And then I thought:
yes, of course.  That is what the world thinks of us.
I've lived abroad;
I've traveled a lot;
I've seen the attitude towards Americans change,
and that change began when the American public
voted George W. Bush into office
a second time.

It's not really a lie,
if the public wants to be lied to.

( from nmnnewsandviews )


Just minutes before this story,
on NPR this morning,
I had listened to a speech from Mitt Romney,
given in Ohio.  Mitt Romney, declaring
that he will make more jobs, trim down the government,
and be a better international face for America ~ ~ ~

It's not really a lie,
if the public wants to be lied to.

It's the logic of the cheating lover
as he hands his spouse some flowers
and tells her that he loves her
before slipping off to see his concubine ~ ~ ~

It's not really a lie,
if the person wants to be lied to.

It's the logic of the boss,
who gives his employees a modest raise,
telling them that he would love to give them more,
but the firm is struggling so much,
and then buys himself a new private Leer jet ~ ~ ~

not really a lie. . . 
they wanted to be lied to. . . 

In the story about Mitt Romney they interviewed
a woman in rural Ohio,
who I'll bet is a size 6 or maybe even a 4,
and she said her only gripe with Mitt Romney is that
he isn't coming down harder on President Obama:

He should be saying it more like it is, and saying it loud,
she said,
Romney's been too polite;
he should not be so polite to Obama!

In other words, she would like to hear Mitt Romney screaming
that Barack Obama has done nothing for America,
that the woes of America are Obama's fault,
that Obama was born in Timbuktu,
that his mother wasn't a white woman from the mid-west,
. . . . .
She wants to hear it again and again,
and she wants to hear it screamed loud and long,
because she wants to be lied to,
because that will help her confirm her own beliefs
that a smart black man should not remain
in the highest office in the nation.

It's not really a lie
if you want to be lied to.

And if she and all the rest of working or
middle class G.O.P. America want to believe
that a wealthy millionaire businessman
really cares for her goodwill,
she can and she will,
as she sits in front of her 48" wide
flat screen TV,
watching the Simpsons,
which she feels comes closest to being like reality to her,
and eating burgers and chips,
in her size 6 jeans.


. . . not really a lie . . . 

(Oh, Romney assures us,
don't worry; we'll still have
Medicare . . . )

Vanity sizing, in the end,
sums up what is wrong with America.
And we hear about vanity sizing,
but still nothing is done about it.
Because we want to be lied to.
Because the truth might mean
that we have to do something about it.



( from runsleeprinserepeat )

I guess there's one good thing we can say about this:
as long as people are still lying,
the world will not end
anytime soon.

Or else that's what we want to believe.


Hamlet: In the secret parts of Fortune? O, most true! She is a strumpet. What's the news?
Rosencrantz: None, my lord, but that the world's grown honest.
Hamlet: Then is doomsday near.

    ( Hamlet II:ii )


    02 February 2011

    enter the Age of Comedy



    It's time for us to end
    The Age of Tragedy;
    we've been living in it
    far too long.

    Now, you wonder,
    what on God's earth 
    does she mean, but you know
    this verbious chick will tell you
    that, and more.
    Furthermore, perhaps you
    (like I) are beginning to wonder 
    if I ever laugh.
    Those last two entries were
    dark, and darker still.

    But in fact,
    I crack a smile on many occasions, and my laugh
    is loud.  I love the rush of fresh air
    that comes with laughing,
    and the way it loosens my clamped
    jaw.  This is why
    I write this entry:
    ~ ~ 

    We've been living in the Age
    of Tragedy 
    for far too long.

    Now the word "tragedy" can be defined
    in a number of ways; I talk
    to my students about this a lot,
    and here, as in the classroom,
    I define it in its most classical sense,
    the way Aristotle did:

    Tragedy, then, is an imitation of an action that is serious, complete, and of a certain magnitude; in language embellished with each kind of artistic ornament, the several kinds being found in separate parts of the play; in the form of action, not of narrative; through pity and fear effecting the proper purgation of these emotions.  (Poetics)

    Thus, 
    as you can see,
    tragedy is all about
    plot and performance.
    Its single, ill-fated action
    does unfold in narrative time,
    enacted by humans
    (Notably, according to Aristotle,
    the most suitable tragic heroes are men)
    while others witness,
    watching one man, one great man
    make one great
    big
    stupid mistake.


    We, the onlookers,
    are supposed to benefit from watching
    that fatal error.  We're supposed to be purged
    of our own sadnesses and nasty desires,
    learn a vital lesson,
    and get on with living,
    civilly.


    Over time, dramatists like Shakespeare
    added a second plot,
    and even women;
    dear Arthur Miller made sure
    the Common Man could share
    in the carnage, and August
    Wilson painted it black.


    Tragedy, for thousands of years,
    has, ultimately, held the place of choice
    in our dramatic fayre.


    ~ ~ ~ 

    Now, I'll take a logical step here
    that asks you to apply some of my other ramblings:

    Narrative time 
    is Real time; 
    Narrative time
    is All Time.
    A distinctive feature of
    Narrative time
    is that it has a clear
    beginning, middle and end
    (aka: birth, life, death);
    its dominant message
    can be summarized
    in stories.
    Narrative time is the time
    we live in.  Lives unfold around
    us, patterned by established patterns
    we have come to call History.

    We live in narrative time.
    We --         
    ----- each of us ---
    write our stories with each step
    we take, each word we 
    utter, each heart we
    break.  Of course, when we get
    to the end of our stories, and
    look back at them,
    we just remember
    the highest highs and the lowest
    lows, editing out the daily trips
    to the bathroom.

    On some level, we all know
    that this is what we are doing
    in our lives:
    creating our own stories.
    This is why we 
    go to college, 
    get married,
    get promoted
    have children
    get divorced
    go on journeys
    retire
    :
    all of these acts provide chapters
    in the narrative of our lives
    and lead us to place we think
    we'd like to be
    in the end,
    as we face our end.

    Sometimes, we feel the need
    to edit our stories, with lies
    and omissions,
    we convince ourselves that we
    are always right,
    believing that when we review
    it all at the end,
    the lies will have the power to erase
    our biggest transgressions.

    Unfortunately, I tend to think that in the story
    we will witness at the end, when
    we confront that unflinching mirror
    of death, those lies and denials will apear
    just as that: 
    lies and denials.
    (ex: she had an abortion
    and told everyone
    she lost the child
    or
    he cheated on his fathful wife
    and when his wife suspected, he convinced her
    she had an overactive thyroid
    to divert her attention. .  . 
    That's how the lies will appear to us.
    The mirror that divides
    this world from the next
    captures each of our actions
    unflinchingly.

    Anyway, I can see my own pen meandering.
    Back to my point:
    we live in narrative time
    and each of our lives,
    so distinctly framed by
    a beginning and an end,
    all contain a series of plots.

    ~ ~ ~ 

    Now, a bit over a year ago,
    I wrote an entry that referred to the idea
    that there are 36 recognized plots
    in drama (or so some critics
    say), and every play
    can be summarized by one
    of those plots.

    Notably, they're all Tragedies.

    In that earlier entry I wondered if the same
    could be said of our lives.
    At that time my own life
    seemed to be catapulting
    down a pre-ordained path
    that could only end tragically,
    and quite frankly, 
    I didn't like it.  I felt fated,
    and I refused to accept that version
    of my own story.
    In the time since,
    I have reclaimed power over the direction
    my feet are tracing, but I'm still 
    unsure of the ending.
    But aren't we all?
    That truly is the part of each
    of our stories
    we generally have little power over.

    Anyway, at that time, I considered how perhaps
    our lives follow
    pre-ordained, repeated plots,
    that traverse this earth in cycles,
    unrecognized until the end, when
    we come face to face 
    with the plot we accepted,
    and lived,
    trudgingly,
    in this lifetime.
    Thinking we couldn't change it,
    we followed the footsteps of those
    who came before.

    And the dominant genre,
    the favored genre 
    of the past 2,500 years or so,
    has been Tragedy.

    Just look at it:
    the blood spattered across the lines
    our feet have traced, 
    collectively and individually.
    Even the story of Jesus
    is a tragedy : He saves us
    in a self-sacrificial gesture; He
    provides us all with a text we repeat
    annually,
    a text that documents humanity's greatest sin:
    the Sin of Killing Innocence.
    A sin we keep committing,
    over and over.

    Who is the Hero in that?

    * * *

    Notably, the joy in the story of Jesus
    comes from two places:
    in the insistence of the primacy of Love
    and
    in an act that, in other circumstances
    would be called "magic."
    He rose from the dead:
    magic.
    And, arguably,
    Comic.

     ( utexas )

     Now, quite frankly,
    one is more likely
    to encounter
    magic,
    rebirth,
    restoration of order
    and a celebration of Love
    in a Comedy.

    Aristotle, by the way,
    appeared to disapprove
    of Comedy.  
    This is what he had to say about it:

    Comedy is, as we have said, an imitation of characters of a lower type- not, however, in the full sense of the word bad, the ludicrous being merely a subdivision of the ugly. It consists in some defect or ugliness which is not painful or destructive. To take an obvious example, the comic mask is ugly and distorted, but does not imply pain. 

    Aristotle did grant women a place 
    in Comedy.


    ~ ~ ~ ~

    Now the thesis of this rambling blog entry is 
    that we should have done with 
    The Age of Tragedy
    and commence
    with Comedy
    (or at least the Tragic-Comic,
    which acknowledges that life has elements
    of both.)

    I propose (as I have said) that each 
    of our lives follows a path,
    a path we choose;
    our feet are our pens,
    their markings, ink, indelibly
    etched across the pages of earthly time.

    Unfortunately, I propose,
    collectively humanity keeps following in the previous
    generations' paths, wearing them deep into the brow
    of human memory,
    so deep we seem to have 
    no other option.

    Those paths are painfully tragic,
    and sad, full of mistakes that we could not accept,
    as we are
    as blind as Oedipus before his 
    eyelessness.


    It's time,
    I think, to have done
    with the Tragic Plots that History
    continually replays; 
    we've become too obsessed with gore,
    titilated by catharsis so much so
    that we've lost sight
    of the lessons we are supposed to be learning,
    all because we,
    the potential heroes, 
    keep lying, from age to age, refusing
    to accept responsibility for the sins
    we've committed.



    The lesson I've learned in my multiple lives
    is
    that you cannot hide from yourself.
    Ultimately, when the crowd is gone,
    when you face your own silence,
    the truths are always there.

    The only way out of the lies that cloak our vision
    is to tell our own truths,
    first to ourselves,
    and then to those we've deceived,
    always remembering
    that only (s)he without sin
    can cast 
    the first stone.


    So let's imagine the majority of humanity
    decided to do this.
    The only humans who should qualify as judges
    in this collective, individual confessional
    will be
    children, with the average age 
    of three.
    If they heard all these stories
    of our indiscretions
    they would laugh at the foolishness
    of humanity before them,
    they would cry a little too,
    but finally,
    thank us for finally telling them
    the truth,

    and they'll still love us,
    because we taught them well.


    Jesus will come again
    at the very instant 
    the Age of Comedy dawns,
    at the crack of the collective human laugh
    at our own foibles
    and clumsiness,
    at the bursting of
    collective love
    that refuses to lie
    ever again.

    Jesus will be there,
    covering the earth like a blanket,
    his smile glimmering in the stories
    that we've each told, 
    and in our final realization that WE 
    have the power to end the Tragedy
    as Comedy.

    01 May 2010

    Back to the subject of mirrors

    The mirror won't go away
    nor will the palindrome
    for that is at the center 
    of the puzzle
    about who we are
    and where we came from.

    Unfortunately you have to read
    what preceded this
    to understand why this
    is relevant.
    For over a week, I've been riffing
    on the rather troubling topic
    of why are we here--
    and that does not necessarily mean
    why are we here--here looking at this screen,
    looking for validation
    in a stream of words
    (well, actually, if you
    follow my logic to one of its
    bloody ends
    you'll find yourself face to face
    with the idea that
    we are here (in front of and sharing)
    this computer screen
    because of why we are here on earth
    in the firs place. . . . 

    because once, so long ago,
    there was a God
    an eternal
    an almighty
    an everlasting
    and unspeakable
    that suddenly 
    for some inexplicable reason
    decided
    it wanted to see itself.

    And so it sought to do so.


    You know, it's true, the most
    economical way for a god
    who is eternal
    almighty
    everlasting
    and unspeakable
    to be able to see
    itself

    would be to create a Godly mirror,
    a Godly means
    to replicate himself.


    I know I sound like I'm repeating myself.
    Because most likely very few people
    want to read all that I've written here.
    If anyone has,
    please pardon me.




    But what else might we be reading about at the very beginning of the Old Testament,
    but the creation of a mirror?

    In the beginning God created
    the heaven and the earth.

    And the earth was without form,
    and void, and darkness was upon 
    the face of the deep.
    And the Spirit of God moved 
    on the face of the water.

    And God said:
    Let There Be Light
    and there was 
    Light.

    When one adds light to the shimmering surface of water,
    what else does one get but
    a mirror?

    And in that mirror, once lighted
    God began to conjure
    a firmament,
    and stars,
    and land
    and vegetables and fruits,
    and fishes and animals
    and finally man,

    "proud man,
    dressed in a little brief authority
    most ignorant of what he's most assured
    His glassy essence, like an angry ape
    (playing) such fantastic tricks before high heaven
    As makes the angels weep . . ."  (Shakespeare, Measure for Measure)

    Man was created not as an original
    but as a part of the massive reflection
    of the face of God
    that God so sought to see.
    But man was the most important part
    because he had something none of the other animals
    had in such abundance.

    And that was his brain.