a pinch of the imperfect (an imperfect channelling)

*

"If the entire human species were a single individual, that person would long ago have been declared mad. The insanity would not lie in the anger and darkness of the human mind—though it can be a black and raging place indeed. And it certainly wouldn't lie in the transcendent goodness of that mind—one so sublime, we fold it into a larger "soul." The madness would lie instead in the fact that both of those qualities, the savage and the splendid, can exist in one creature, one person, often in one instant."  (Jeffrey Kugler, "What Makes Us Moral?" Time Magazine 3 March 2007)

This is a difficult concept to grasp,

that we are two in one,

we, the human occupying the human 

body

are two in one --

we each contain the 

ability

to be good

to be bad

all at the same time,

we 

all

are 

two, and the two we contain

are the imitation 

of the part of God

that became manifest

as the moment of the splitting,

the splitting being

the physical act God

had to produce

             in order

to be able to reproduce

Himself.

God had to split

in half, into

the negative and the positive,

in order to see:

                 the positive

                       is what She saw,

the glorious, succulent

material present

( ishs.org )

that is what God saw:

the visual, the 

aural, the

tactile,

the

sensual, the

aromatic,

all that IS

is what God saw:

all that IS

is good is bad

is what God saw

 ( howstuffworks )

So . . . . .  .

 

if God saw the all that he created,

and it was good,

what in heaven's name was doing the seeing?

WHAT saw it all,

and WHAT was glad?

 

What did the seeing was always that

which could not be seen,

the negative,

the negative -

the negative !

the other side of the 

dichotomy,

in Derridean terms:

MALE                     FEMALE

positive                  negative

light                    dark

day                       night

spoken                           silent

visible                        invisible

 

 We live in the realm of the visible,

of the male,

but it was our opposite -

that was there

but not there

to view the creation

and to be amazed by it.

( wikipedia: michelangelo )

Ever since the onset of the Renaissance

(when Makropoulos was 

born,

by the way)

that glorious time

when the mind had evolved to a more mature

level of being able to reproduce

itself,

ever since then, 

the trend 

has been to focus

on the male:

the physical manifestion

that god produced in order to be able

to see Herself --

and hey

wouldn't you want to fixate

on that for awhile?

wouldn't you want to fixate on that

fabulous something

that you created

in order to see

yourself?

Imagine it:

here you are, 

you are invisible and

undivisable,

and you just created

something visibly 

you,

you gave yourself 

the opportunity to see

yourself

in the mirror

wouldn't you want

to look at it

for a thousand years

or so?

Wouldn't you want to see it,

just turn it over and over

in your hands

and adore it?

( geekology )

It would be

your perfect opposite,

your mythic soulmate:

there you'd be

and you would be so amazed

at the beauty of it,

you would gaze into it,

get lost in it.

(Mirrors have been the replacement for

the absence of the Others;

they've been here to keep us

company, and to let us know

what we look like, so

when we see our other halves,

we'll recognize them.)

So that was the moment

of splitting,

the moment

of making visible

ourselves,

that was it - the first act that all 

creation has been doomed

ever since

to repeat and represent.

Every physical entity on earth

contains within it an imitation

of that moment of splitting

 

The sperm (the physical

projectile born

of the desire to

see and be with the 

Other

                (so completely),

yes the sperm is

the physical imitation of the desire

to enter into

the engulfing presence

of the engenderer.

(if you can figure that one out,

you get a gold star---)

 

* * *

 

because the Other to the physical creation

is so Beautiful

that the physical creation

wants, immediately

to penetrate and become

part of it again.

Something like that.

)

( pixabella )

Every physical entity on earth

contains within it an imitation

of that moment of splitting

Indeed, that includes

the human,

the creature doomed

to strut and fret

our time upon this stage,

we, our body-avatars,

and the trinity 

of liquidity

we each contain

are all the imitation

of what god produced and saw

at that moment of dividing

in half,

              but the problem,

              as Isaac Luria helps us see,

was that the creation

of the duplication

of God produced

such a force

[the power of God]

made manifest

         at the moment

              of this production,

there was such an explosion,

( baylor )

like fireworks,

 That

 

is the manifestation

of the power

of 

GOD

 

 

 

( 2005 Cosmic Explosion - NASA)

I'm serious.

( space.com )

 . . . . and at the moment of the bang,

everything

became visible

physical,

ie:

it was created.

(It's that simple!)

 

 (Space.com2 ) 

 

 So, anyway,

at that mment of explosion and 

production,

the negative,              the positive

the unseen,                     the seen,

the unheard                        the heard

the unfelt,                 the felt

came to be.

it's that simple, 

those concepts

and all they signify

came to be

be 

cause

of creation

and the creative urge.

So we live in the physical realm, because that's the

half of God we

occupy,

but 

that doesn't preclude

the existence of the

non existent.

It's just there,

and all that it (the non-existent) contains

is the negative

of the totality

that is the manifest

in

the physical.

(That's a hard concept to grasp

when you live in the physical.)

But as I said,

the problem

                        and the beauty

                 of it all

is that each of us

contains

an imitation

of that doubling

to one extent or the other.

So Luria helps me say: god created

the imitation of

god, male and female

so they could see

themselves,

but the energy produced at that 

moment

was too great

for the illusion,

the representation

to remain while,

so it exploded and shattered

into pieces

and the pieces 

got the unenviable job

of picking up the pieces

and having to put them back

together 

again.

And that's what we've been doing

for millenia,

and god

in Her distant place, delighted

at the delightful games

of Her children BUT

got disturbed if the Boys

got too rough

*

please think semiotically

*

ANYWAY,

all species also imitate

the duality and the moment

of creation

and the Desire

to Reproduce,

over and over because

that desire

and compulsion

has maintained

our existence

giving us

time

to evolve

our minds,

our souls,

our spirits

our goods and our evils,

all the intangible

invisible

entities that

the frail human body

was appointed

to contain and sustain in

the delicate cases

we encase:

our brains,

our hearts,

our solar plexus,

our stomachs, which provide

the protective shield for containing

the unprotectable.

( science-nationalgeographic )

Our fingers,

our ears,

our eyes 

represent

the fingers,

ears,

eyes

of God

 made manifest

at the moment when We

confronted

our eact opposites, 

those which contains

our good and our bad,

we,

who contain

God's essences

     imitate

that moment of looking, too,

which also includes the moment

of being disappointed

because our Other

our Creation

isn't perfect,

wasn't perfect,

won't be perfect,

won't be Us

completely

because if God's

Other Half

was perfect,

God wouldn't be able to see it,

because He would be it.

 

that's right :

we wouldn't have to divide ourselves

in an attempt to see

ourselves

if we didn't contain 

a pinch

of the imperfect.

Oh, now you,

dear reader who dared

to make it this far,

you wonder:

where the hell is this going?

As I sit and read this,

I know what it says.

It says:

I even I

with my changeable moods,

my unchartable soul,

my angry temper

my fits of elation

and tearful, lonely evenings

I contain 

an imitation

of God at the moemnt

tHEy

(male and female)

let the pinch of imperfection

influence itself and deicde

to divide 

so it could see itself

I imitate that moment

of god's self-consciousness,

and imitate

the entity he saw,

the entity that was 

too great

to be whole,

so it exploded

and became 

the scattered remnants

of the visible

             reproduction of God--

and the shattering, glimmering parts of the fractured god 

regrouped

 - so to speak -

and became

planets and stars

and plants and animals

all 

species,

all with our different task,

as we have worked together over the ages,

striving to reproduce the whole,

and humans had the job

of building the connections ,

and over time we have evolved

and we have reached

a

near perfect

connection

I can sit in my living room and see and talk to 

in real time

a friend of mine

in Singapore.

We're so close to being the complete unity

we're supposed to be

but we have 

one problem:

 

we each still feel we're different from each other.

We are at a cusp.

We each have to recognize

that in our individual selves

though we reproduce both parts of god,

still,

within our individual selves

we can really only contain 

half,

and somewhere there

is the Other 

half of us

with whom,

when we're together

we produce a melting

into One, just One

 

 

this applies equally to 

individuals,

families,

states,

nations,

worlds. . . .

*

And you see we each

have to recognize

and admit

that in containing 

the parts of god, we must

also contain god's opposite,

which is 

evil

because evil is something 

God created, 

so we would all know good.

God is all,

and so are we,

but we

just happen to be

fractured all,

the physical part of God

that God produced

when God felt the desire

to see

the self.

( tikkun )

Do we want to See God

in our time?

Well, you know,

the only way we can do that

is to act like the gods

we were born to be,

which means

we need to recognize

that the man and the woman

the most opposite

of ourselves

is one essential piece

in the visible puzzle

of the perfect picture

of the product of god.

We need

to forgive ourselves

our faults

and forgive our

brothers their faults

and forgive the Others:

the dark,

the female,

the strange,

the silent,

as they must do

unto us.

It's that flippin' easy.

Jesus said it too,

but he was rendered a sound bite.

Still,

his message 

never changed.

The most essential part

of this simple task is

that we must be honest

with ourselves

first,

and see our flaws,

and once we honestly

acknowledge

the wrong we ourselves

have committed or contemplated,

we can also look past

what we view

as the wrongs in others.

I'm not saying we should get rid 

of our negative impulses.

We can't.

But we should acknowledge

them,

live with them,

find 

an arena in which we can

act on them 

so no one gets hurt

and get on with the task

of saving our earth,

that is,

if we do indeed enjoy this joy ride we've been on

enough

to want to see it survive beyond

the next step

in our evolution.

 

Panorama of Grand Canyon Village Lookout supplied by Panoramic Earth

 

 (panaromic earth)

 

The Fall of Man, According to Makropoulos

At the fall of man
we were torn asunder.  
Our downfall was our desire
to see ourselves. 


Let me tell you the story
of the Fall of Man,
according to Makropoulos:

(source: Technabob )

Now for a little more self promotion:  If you want to see the logic that led up to this last claim,

you have to read the entry that precedes it. And you will probably need to read this to understand that, so just face it: you're caught in a dangerous cycle.

1.
Lurianic Kabbalah helps us see that the fall of man is associated with
the moment at which
God felt a need
to see himself.

That is the fundamental element
of our Fall,
(ie: please read: the Fall of Man is, in this reading, directly linked to the moment of Creation.  Basically, I'm reading Biblical Genesis stories alongside the stories that have typically been considered "mysticism."   I see them as parallel stories, and all act metaphorically.  And they're honestly all kind of based upon the same question:  "How the hell did we get here?"  Now I honestly don't know if anyone else  has made an attempt to parallel the Biblical story of Creation with the mystical stories about the absolute moment of Creation.  I imagine someone has, and if I look long enough in internet land, I'll find out who did it, and when. . . .

-- oh what, are you telling me you don't know Lurianic Kabbalah?  Well, howdy do.  I don't mind explaining it, if you can stay with me that long.  My problem is that I'm channelling, and I'm following a line of logic that is coming to me from my body, my heart, my soul, and my brain.  Oh, please understand by now that when I say that something is coming to me, what I'm saying is that this message is coming to me through my body, and my body, like your body, is an apparatus, and avatar, if you will, that we developed so we could look at ourselves.  You may have to go back to my earlier entry to understand this.

Our bodies, in many ways, are the products of earth that we (the earth 
and it many developments) developed 
so we could come to comprehend that we are always caught in the act
of looking at ourselves. It's kind of like humans are organs.  We are, in fact,
the most important organ on the entity that is known 
as earth.



Maybe this will make you feel better:
we, the inhabitants and children of the physical earth, are the manifestation of the other half 
of God.  .   .   I'll  come back to that.  I think that's a pretty big idea to interrupt a minor thought with.
Remind me to read this again.



I wanted to explain Isaac Luriah:  Mr. Luriah, who was a mystic (I now know, after 400 and some years, that I too am a mystic), Mr Luria had a very nice vision of his own to help me see what I'm trying to piece together now.

I don't know why HE had this vision.  But he did.  


So his vision went like this:


According to Mr. Luria, 
who was trying to answer the question of:
why were we ever created in the first place?
           
we were created because there was a moment when God,
which, by the way, is Life, The World, and Everything,
 wondered what the hell He Looked Like.

Yeah, that's right -- God, the Everlasting, Eternal, all-knowing, unnamable, 


Yeah, that Guy -- suddenly decided


He Wanted To See Himself


Now, honestly, why would God want to See Himself?


But he did.  


So he kind of had to produce his other side, so he could see it.  He couldn't produce
himself
because to produce himself would be to produce
Double Everything
(two two two mints in one!),
and honestly
that's just not possible.


So the best he could do was
Half of Himself.


That's right: when God felt the desire to see himself, or herself, 
or whatever is self to God

("self" by the way, is a word which, in English, is a mirror word.)


when God felt that desire, she literally had to cut himself
in half
and he found herself looking at his other half,
which, well, in English at least,
means he -- if he is male -- found himself looking at a woman

or perhaps God was the woman, and he was using the Other self
to help him see himself.

Oh, Lord, I hope to God this makes sense:




Let me say that again:
God
who really has no reason to want to see himself, because he is everything
decides
he wants to see himself.


How the hell does he do that?


He has to produce a space outside himself 
in which he can hold
(if God, which is Everything, can Hold Something, because why the hell would Everything want a hand?)
an apparati
by which 
he

may look at himself


A mirror.


       now that's an interesting thought: that God produced a mirror so he could see himself.  God produced a surface with the capability of reproducing the face of God.  Now, that's something you can't get at the Dollar General.  




Now in Lurrianic Kabbalah, 
At this moment of deciding that he wanted to see himself,
God contracted
--
as a woman suffers contractions while giving birth
--
so he could produce a space
in which he could hold a mirror or something like that
and 
in Lurianic Kabbalah,
that mirror was composed
of spinning, stunning
rods and spheres,


(Now if you can't see penises and vaginas in that imagery.
well, you're just not being honest
with yourself.)


So, let me say that again: God wanted to see himself.
Therefore,
God had to produce a space 
somewhere in everything
which is 
everything he had to create a space
in which 
he could
HOLD a mirror.

This also meant he had to produce a mirror and 
some kind of apparati for holding a mirror


(I should say, any good Lurianic Kabbalist is just spinning and turning right now, reading what I'm writing here,
but I hope they take the time to read again.)


Anyway, all this spinning of 
rods and spheres 
was supposed to produce 
the representation of God
if you get what I mean:


I'll say it again
God, who was everything, got this idea
He wanted to see himself,
Soooooo
He had to create a space inside of of everything, 
where he could produce some kind of
apparatus
by which 
he could see himself.


God had to produce
a mirror.

and I guess he did have to have a hand to hold it
therefore he produced a body
which, 
among other things,
has to have a hand to hold a mirror.
 


)
that suddenly
when God felt a desire
to see himself,
he had to divide himself.
OR
he had to produce an apparati
through which he could see himself

2.
Either or: mirror or exact opposite.
That's what he did.

3.
Well, I'll tell you,
if your brain is in a twist right now, or
if you're so sick of me saying the same thing
over and over again,
just imagine how I feel.

$.

I personally prefer the idea that he had to produce half of himself.

5.

But according to Luria, those spinning spheres and rods
fell before the reproduction was
complete.
In other words, God dropped the mirror,

porquoi? 

probably because it was his first experience of
holding one.
and when the mirror fell, when the glimmering rods and spheres
fell,
they shattered.
they shattered.

And humanity's task ever since then
has been to put the mirror back together
so we could see the face
of God.

Or so God could see
his own face.

Now

Does

That

Make

Sense


?